Murphy's Law has taken hold...

ughhhhhhhhh... :-( Wow, my life sucks. Where to begin... Well, Monday morning I woke up at 5:30 with the intention to leave by 6. Didn't actually get on the road until about 6:20. Then I hauled balls to the wall down 81 not really giving a crap about cops. Average speed was around 85-105. Got up to Sterling around 9:45 for a total time of a little under 3 1/2 hours. That's friggin fast considering it normally takes a bit over 4 hours. Looking back on my stupidity I thank God for his grace in not being pulled over! So then I quickly unpacked all of my stuff and headed over to work at around 10:50. I got started off on the right foot with a nice 40 minute drive in. But I tried not to let it get to me and I went into work somewhat happy. Then I spent a couple hours finding people and catching up and gossiping which was fun and entertaining. Then had to do something. Well I found out that I am still on the same crappy project. I had heard they had moved it to the web based stuff but I was incorrect. So much for doing anything new and exciting. :-( Also, my boss who was a bad influence on me last year is still there. He was supposed to have quit/transferred/been fired before now so I was really suprised and not too happy to see him still there. First thing he said was like "Hey! I got us a bunch of business trips/drunk-exs lined up for the summer, it's gonna be a good one!" I'm just like, "ugh...oh great...can't wait...". Why is he still here?! Ugh...I need lots of prayer to keep me strong. So that's that. It was nice to see the other guys, they're really good to me. Then I went to set up my system. My old DTNet internet machine was stolen while I was gone so that sucks. Now I'm stuck with the piece of crap that is my NMCI machine. So after going through heck to update my password and all the software on there for the past four months I finally got it running, albeit extremely slow since its possibly the worst machine ever. The government really knows how to spend money on good stuff. *rollseyes* So that was done, then to set up my SGI machine to do some work. Well, they took my monitor and replaced it with one whose screen shakes. I'm like, oh great. I loved my old monitor. So, I tried a new Dell one. Didn't shake but the screen was so friggin bright that I couldn't see what the heck I was doing. So I decided it would be awesome to dual-plug it in with my nice Dell LCD from my old DTNet machine. (yes amazingly they left me the LCD!) Problem was, to do this I needed the Dell DVI adapter that came with my monitor. I remember exactly what it looked like and what I had left it in 2 years ago, so now I just had to track it down. So I spent the last 3 hours of my day rummaging through cabinets and mounds of crap and boxes and trash all over the building looking for this thing. We never get rid of anything so I knew it was there somewhere. Finally I found my old Dell box! But, my adapter wasn't there! :-( Since I had the only Dell LCD monitor around, I'm SOL for that idea. So that sucked. I was pissed and went home, sat through lots of traffic and got back at like 8 something. Then Jon was there so I said hi and we actually played some Gamecube together for a bit, so that was a step in the right direction as far as him. Then I crashed hard. This morning I woke up late around 6:05. Slept through my alarm since I was supposed to be up at 5:15 to shower and miss traffic. So I wasn't able to hit the road until about 6:45. By that time traffic is hell on earth on 7 and Georgetown. I spent a little over an hour getting in today and got there about 7:50. I can't count how many times I almost wrecked. I swear, in 4 months, people have decreased in driving ability and curdiosy about 500%. Either that or I just forgot how much they suck. So, I was so pissed at everyone on this morning, I let it get to me and was just heated when I got to work late. At work I was feeling really mad and disillusioned at the world so I wasted my first hour and a half surfing the web. Then I decided I should do something but still didn't have a functioning monitor. So, still being pissed off I went downstairs to the SMMTT project and stole a nice monitor that they weren't currently using. Dunno if they need it later but I don't care. They have all the nice equipment always on their project and my project always gets pissed on. So, in the process of carrying it over I got my belt loop on my jeans stuck on something on the door and end up ripping off a belt loop and leaving a nice hole in my new jeans. Wow, I was pissed, I was seething after that one...and still am. So finally I get my monitor up there. Then I go to find my old harddrive with all my work and stuff on it. Couldn't find it anywhere and then John is like, "oh I think we shipped that off to the IPR because we needed a harddrive." So I'm just like are you kidding me? Do I not exist anymore??? Leave for a couple of months and you people are taking all my stuff! So, luckily, knowing this might happen, I had made a backup copy and stashed it somewhere else. So I found that, but the only problem was, as I found out later, at the very end of the year I had stripped the drive of all secret data and stuff because I was going to take it to VT with me to work parttime...another plan they changed on my last-minute and another reason I'm pissed at them. Anyhow, so essentially this drive is worthless because I have no lessons on it. But I didn't find that until later. First I had to update the source code on it. In doing this I found that the CD command for diffing files had changed. Dan Poe decided to change the script for the Linux users, forgetting that there are still a few of us peon SGI guys left. So I spent around 4 hours trying to figure out how in the heck to get his crappy script to work. Finally got it and updated my source. Naturally, the thing wouldn't build anymore. So I had to clean make it which takes a good 40 minutes. So that finally got done but then I realized that I had no data. So, that's ok, I'd just do an rcp from Bill's machine over to mine. But no, for some reason the rcp command decided to stop working also. I'm just like "what the heck, can I do ANYTHING PLEASE?!" So I spend about an hour trying to find out why it was broken, to no avail. So I go to Dan, and he says just to copy the data to my home directory then over to my disk. I'm like, dude its 6 gigs of stuff it's going to take years, but he assured me that it wouldn't. An hour later it was about 2 gigs of the way done...to my home directory. At that pace, it's going to take me like 6 hours to get this data. So I pissed and it was about 4:15 so I was like screw it I'm leaving. So I left, jumped on a packed Beltway and packed Georgetown Pike. Took me about an hour to get home, not to mention swerving to avoid about 2 more accidents and having jerks honk at me for being curdious to other people. I'm trying to be nice now, but maybe I should be just be a bitter callous driver that I used to be last year. Apparently nobody appreciates curdosy anymore. So I finally get near home and have no gas left. So I stop and pay FRIGGIN $2.05 PER GALLON. First time ever in my life paying over $2 for gas and I'm really pissed about it. So I fill up 14 something gallons for about $30. What a deal! So, get home at like 5:15 or so. I had class at Nova at 6:30 and I was going to bike over at 6 so I needed to get my bike in order. But, I decided to go to my room first and change clothes. I sat down on my bed for a minute, then woke up at 8:15. I just straight up crashed, I'm so exhausted. So I woke up just seething. I had slept right through my first class of the summer. I dunno what the heck to do now because usually the first class is required and lots of info goes out then. I guess I'll have to email the professor and pray for mercy, I dunno. So, right now I'm so pissed about that. So, now thoughts and conclusions:

This is my final hurrah up here. I can't take it anymore. I haven't been up here 48 hours yet and already I feel I've digressed a million times in quality of life and happiness. I hate traffic, I hate wasting 1 to 2 hours or more everyday in traffic. I hate everybody around here. They're so bitter and callous and impatient and impossible. I hate the weather. It's only 75 out but so humid that I can't go outside for a nice evening walk because it feels so nasty out. Oh, and to top it off, this is the year of the 17-year sacadas. So with the woods in the backyard, it sounds like theres a constant high-pitched alarm going off 24-7. I want to rip my ears out. I hate my job. I feel like I'm wasting my life working here. They don't care about their employees, they give us crap equipment. They're completley disorganized and poorly managed in every way possible. I'm completely bored with what I do. I sit there and fix bugs in crappy code from years ago for a program that's about a year or 2 away from being completely obsolete. It's pointless. I want to be inventing, learning, doing new stuff. I want to be able to use what I've worked hard in school for. Not sit there doing high school C code. I'm so sick of it. I wish I could just quit now but I need the money for next year. But one thing is certain, this is it. I'm looking to the Corporate Research Center for next summer because life here blows. Now I'm going to sleep some more since that seems to be the only thing that can go right. Oh wait, no that screwed me up royally today also. :-(