Exponential Blah

Yesterday was uber-blah. Went to work for another 10 1/2 hours and looking back on the day, I'm not sure what I did. You know it's sad when you seriously can't remember what you wasted 10 1/2 hours doing. I didn't read at all, I surfed the web, I tweaked with my website a little, I wrote some emails, surfed the web some more, dozed in and out of sleep, had some IM convos and surfed the web some more. But 10 1/2 hours?!? How did I waste all that time and have nothing to show for it?! I dunno...ugh. So work got over, I drove home, had a quick dinner, then ran out for class at 6:30. We had our last test tonight, which I could care less about and didn't bother to think about, much less study for, but I got a 94 on it, so that was cool. Then sat there for the next 2 1/2 hours listening to pointless speeches and zoning out. Came home, had my quiet time and went to bed. Blah. :-/

Deep Thoughts Of the Day:
I'm just so sick and tired of coming home tired all the time. It doesn't matter if I am even working hard or not. Just sitting in front of computers for 8-12 hours a day in a room with no sunlight just fries my brain. I come home and my head just feels like its swimming in a murky mess. The feeling is hard to describe, but it only happens after I work here and its pretty much every day. I just get home, my head is so zoned out, I can't do anything. I avoid convos with my family because I'm too tired to talk, I don't want to go out with friends because I'm too tired, and I usually avoid doing else because I'm tired and unmotivated. So I'll just come home and either fall asleep or spend more time in front of my computer. Actually, not lately, since I don't use my home computer anymore, I'll usually just come home and sleep, lol. And then read or something. But the bottom line is, computers just physically wear me out and this can't be good for my health, much less my pyschological state. This is nothing new, I've been dealing with it at this job for 2 1/2 years now. And I doubt it would be any better at another computer job either. So maybe I should just give up on the IT industry. It's killing me physcially, socially, emotionally and any other "*ally" you can think of. :-/ But my wallet is fat. Money vs. happiness, ah the eternal question...hmm. :-/